Hi friends,
this blog is dedicated to everything and everyone around me. My family, my friends & all my sweet small small things that I truly admire! ~
Happy to tell you all that now I am taking one step ahead in my life.
Looking forward to a college life.
Well I am really happy that the happiest part of my life, my "school life", is soon getting promoted to college life!
From the beginning itself, when I was in eighth standard, I told my parents that I wish to go out for my further studies, away from my hometown. They too agreed always but I never took them serious even though it was my own choice.
whoooaaaa....
It was my choice to live according to my rules and principles and wanted to realize the true meaning of words like independent and responsibility.!
At that time I never realized the true weight-age of these words. These words always sounded simple. But actually these are not so simple. Now I feel we have to make them so simple.
So finally it has been decided that I am going to continue my further studies from Pune. Away from my home town Dehradun!
Wow! Feels great ...I will go out at last!
Oooooo......
a mixed feeling is giggling me ...happy, excited, a bit tension too but at last again relieved looking forward for the positivity of the fact of going out!Hmm... So now the preparation begins!
Packing, Shopping & packing. Even all smallest things that I will need!
Well to tell you all my accommodation is neither a pg nor a hostel.
I will be living with a known di (sister), elder than me, in a rented Flat. She is pursuing MCA.
Hmm... So the packing is in progress. For this I even went for the shopping. Had fun! :)
20th July, 2011,
the day when I have to leave for Pune,
is getting nearer day by day.
And my so happy feelings are
slowly and gradually turning into sad ones.
Even today, my sad mood made me write this blog.
Huh... feeling so restless, uncomfortable. Sometimes feel be with everyone and enjoy at best and sometimes feels like crying and being alone.
I don't know how tears came out of my eyes without any specific reason. A single thought of going away from home makes me cry... burst into tears even at times.
Hoooo... I now know it’s not that easy as I felt earlier. I need to be strong.
Ya, I know everything. Even I am strong enough to manage things on my own. My mom, my sis has always lifted my moral up with their inspiring words...
but still this unknown, so called "ajeeb", feeling comes again and again.
I feel as if I am lost. Ya lost in thinking how the things will be changed soon.
"ME", yeah me, a girl, youngest in the family, closest to everyone at home (most laadli).
A girl who is always dependent on her family for her so small things. I am so childish at times that I won’t even eat my meal myself. Rather prefer my sis or my mom to feed me with their hands.
Such obstinate and childish girl has to learn to live independently, do things on her own.
On the whole I have the decision power for myself. Either I have to make it or break it.
No... Not at all..... Feels like screaming.
Does all this means now I can't act any more childish? I have to be careful for every thing I do.
And being a member of middle class family, I surely have to learn how to spend money, think before I need to use it. As usually I used to tell my mom for things that I need and the things were with me soon. But now every decision is mine.
I have to manage all the works, my studies, my timings, savings & many more important things. I have to make my shoulders strong enough to take my responsibilities.
Though it may not sound hard or difficult to you but this is for me.
I know I have always been living a queen's life at my home...!
All tensions & worries were far apart. The real world comes now.
My family showing their trust and faith in me by sending me out.
Ya dear my family has always been conservative... especially for girls.
But I love the practical understanding of my family. They support me, trust me. They know that I can make it & will manage things nicely.
Mom Dad I really love you!
Love you brother for making it possible. Love you sis for your Super natural’s powers that you keep pouring inside me.
Yes, yes, yes!!!! I am happy. I will learn how to tackle the responsibilities. I will make my family feel proud of me.
So glad to see how the things are turning.
Here comes a "BUT". Feeling again......
but apart from all these I do feel sometimes distracted. A negative feeling tries to grasp me and make me ask once again to myself.
"WILL I really be able to make it? "
Will I be able to manage everything? An unknown place, Unknown people.
No one knows me and so do I.
O GOD!! These multiple mixed emotions make me cry...!
Even right now... I am feeling like running to mom dad and hug them tightly and tell them you are my world. I am going to miss you both the most.
Mumma I will miss hugging you. Papa, I love the way you care for me. I am just like his heart beat. I have always been in front of his eyes. I am the bubbliest member of my family.
OH my home sweet home. I am going to miss you.
I am going to miss everything. My lovely room, the coziest place I have ever been, that lovely collection of my soft cuttu teddies...
and ya my pc.. My best friend... the one whom with me spent most of my time.
I accept, things will far more different there. But I will try my best to adjust myself accordingly. I will try to pour that liveliness that I love to hold everywhere.
This fact will always remain friends that nothing can replace my home whether I do anything there, doesn't make the difference.
I will miss my sis, yes didu... I will miss all those fights... screamimg. Shouting... that masti, that fun we always used to have together.
Mmuaawh... di... you have given me a bunch of memorable moments.
Oh ma shona baby.... how can I forget you...? I am going miss you like anything shona...Nobody will be there to hit me... shout in my ears... call me "buuuu": love the way when you sweetly call me buuuuuuuuuu...
I will miss you my baby...
Perhaps, it’s really hard to leave but I have to.
Pain of going away from home will always be there I can't describe how it makes me feel sad every time I think of it!
Gonna miss everything..................
